Slow Writer

Ugh.

That is all I have to say to the months of March and April.

They’ve been a bit of a whirlwind. Chris (my husband) has been in and out of town, to SXSW and a conference in Las Vegas. It’s tough to be home without him.

I haven’t written a lot these past couple of months. I’ve made some progress, but it’s been meager and sporadic. I write at work as an SEO copywriter, and though that is very different from creative writing and other stuff I do on my own, it still sucks the brain power. After having stared at a screen, coming up with new words and typing all day, I often just don’t want to do more of the same at home.

I’ve let my enthusiasm for my current project flicker a bit.

The same fire and excitement just isn’t there. I love starting projects — ho yes, I do. It’s easy and fun and full of possibility like maybe this is the one that comes easy, that just happens, that forms perfectly into a beautiful masterpiece.

But, alas, writing isn’t like that. At least, not for a whole novel.

I’ve committed to finishing the story/book I’m writing on now before moving on. Even though I keep having ideas pop up of stories that want to be told.

I read a piece by Karen River about how to finish a novel that she posted yesterday. It is pretty much spot on for how I am feeling right now.

But I will keep going, I have to do it. I have to finish this novel, and prove to myself, prove to others that I can do this. I’m an author. I’m a novelist.

Originally my goal was to have a first draft finished by my birthday.

Now — I don’t know. I’d still like to try for June 12th, but it doesnt quite seem doable. We’re going on a trip to Poland in three weeks, so there are plans to make for that. Chris is graduating and looking for a job. Soon there could be packing and moving and all kinds of wild fun. There’s no real stretches of quiet or solitude from here to my birthday.

I’m a bit burnt out with everything at the moment, but I’m not ready to give up hope yet that I can still pull it off.

It will take a lot of dedication, to do it. But the alternative? Putting it aside? It just isn’t a choice I’m going to make,

2 thoughts on “Slow Writer

  1. Hi Elyssa!!! Do not get discouraged. I remember when I went back to school and my brother said, “Well, how old will you be when you finish?” ha! I told him the same age as if I didn’t finish school. So…keep on writing and that draft will get done.

    • Kylie- Wow, that’s actually perfect for me! Kind of the idea that whether we’re working on our goals or not, six months from now will still be six months from now. And what are we going to have to show for it?

      Thanks for the comment and tweet!

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